Story Part duex...duex..

So I worked the rest of that summer..heartbroken. Waking up going to work.. visiting my dad in Mad-town. Talking with AK girl nightly keeping hope that I will see her again. My dad's condition soon stabilized and it soon became clear that he was going to live. I then started saving up money...and I did... Carly and I saved up enough money for me to go back to AK. I was going to go up there for about 3.5 weeks. After much deliberation. I remember my Mom telling me that I didnt deserve to go.. That I shouldn't go..I remember it because I think it was the single cruelest words she has ever said to me. I mean its like telling you.. you dont deserve to eat...

I went though, despite her. I went and I dont regret one day of it. I think it was probably the happiest I have been. I was in love and it was naive young love. The kind that you have that you dont realize the down side of being in love, or being jaded by others....The first love type. I got to spend time with her and her family and really bond. Her family is that great family type. You know the ones that everybody knows everybody, even 3rd cousins. The kind of family that most people are jealous of..that kind. They treated me like one of their own. I will spare you the details of the trip, mostly because they are pristine in my mind and I will keep them to myself. Some things are better left unwritten. I do remember saying goodbye. I remember that I wrote her a letter the night before, and it was soaked in tears. Saying everything that I could. I knew then that I would never see her again, even though to this day I would love to see her again. Not because of feelings but just to know that I left on my own terms and not those dictated by life. I can remember seeing her..hugging her for the last time. I remember it like it was yesterday....

I read her letter for me, almost as soon as we were apart. It was tough but satisfying. See Carly was the type of girl that was like a nut. A tough exterior, but once you get into it.. there is no going back. She would be hesitant to admit her feelings, so when she did it was great. My flight was delayed for hours...and I almost went back to her island for one more night.. but 9 hours later.. I went home...and started a different chapter of my life.