Hello,
So I have been in a rut lately...again. but I have a plan to bust out of it. I have ballooned in weight although my bf is 14%.. it used to be 11%. I have hired a personal trainer to get me to where I want to be, and maybe coach me up a little. This is Day 2. I need to take it day by day.. persistence beats resistance.
My car also broke and I had to spend 1600 to fix it. Money that I want to pay my car off with, but now..nothing. I am constantly getting pulled back. I hope things change soon. I thought this where looking up, but the girl i was seeing.. seems not to be interested. I mean she doesnt really call, or write, or electronic media.. which is fine... she called me the heart throb from hell...maybe she meant it.
I just got to keep my head up and keep going. No more dicking around. No more eating at night, and running 10 miles.. just normal.. at least for me. which is working out every day and running 4. I did find out I am beating myself. I run on empty stomach and have a severe calorie deficiency which keeps me from constructing muscle, and keeps me lean, but when I have carbs.. my body absorbs them, and repeat cycle.. bloating.. weight gain etc. I hope things get better.
Anyway, I have to go to a bs meeting now.
Chris
