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So I had told you that I had just met her parents...Boomer her Dad, and June May.. Her Mom. It was ackward for about two minutes, but after that her family made me feel like I was there the whole time, it is still an amazing feeling that I cant forget. I think that is why I want a big family. I mean these people had big dinners, and family functions, and actually enjoyed each other. I dont know about you, but most of my family hates us, and those that dont are dead. I remember our first night there we went to the town park and had halibut tacos. They where really good, and if I wasnt as big as a douchebag as I was back then, I would really enjoy them now. I played catch with her Dad and cousin. Since they dont have football as a sport up there (I dont know how either) I thought I would show um how midwestners do it. It was fun. The general flow of those first few days where... watch a movie until her parents went to bed, fool around, go to bed..wake up and sneak into each others room, hold each other, fool around, have breakfast, repeat as required. I still can remember how I felt watching the sunset while holding her in my arms.. It was amazing...I mean I was in Alaska.. Well, things were going great.. I mean.. we where having fun, hangin out... everything was soo worth it......until I got a phone call from back home after 4 days up there....The voice on the other end was my Mom "And she said, chris, we think your dad is going to die, you have a choice to stay, or come back. He didnt want us to tell you because he knew how much the trip meant to you. I replied instantly, I may never come back to Alaska, but I know one thing for sure.. I only have one dad.. I will come home...at this point I will stop..but know..it was this moment that changed my life forever..I think my heart was broken on multiple levels, and I am not sure it will ever recover..I can still remember handing the phone to June and looking at Carly through my tears..fuck.. That is all for now...

I am doing the dice thing too much

Hello,...Again,
So I have decided to move on from MS. It is just a matter of when. I just don't think it is for me. I mean, M-Th. I don't have a life besides work...which sucks. I have the choice of moving to Mobile which is about 40 min. away to have some woman under the age of 50, or stay put. If I move, I will even have less of a life during the week than I do now. I just need to go some place with a young vibe.. At my work. I am the only guy under 32....and that guy is married with a kid. So there isn't much "bonding".
In other news, the bears and cubs have broken my heart, and I am generally depressed. I have tried these dating sites.....so I think I get the gist of it. Woman put there picture on there as some sort of attraction getter, but really have no plans on returning any emails, etc. its a joke. I actually sparked a conversation with a beautiful Blondie this weekend, things where going great. Ya know, the typical laughin, charmin, what not.. What happens... a woman selling flowers for her daughters college (at a bar at midnight)!! comes and asks us to buy a flower. Of course, this process takes 20 min with the woman telling us her life story.. So what ends up happening.. kills the conversation vibe (flower lady) was in between us....and no dice. I am just tired..Maybe I should write to Charles Barkley to pay my school loans off. he did it for that waiter. why not me..
I ran 6 miles this morning.. nothing like 60+ min. on a treadmill.. for what.. for who? yet I do it.. I don't really dread going to work.. but I think what kind of bs work am I going to do today. I was all excited when I got promoted. now I see less of the ships than I did when I was in I.E....and that is my fav. part.. walking around the ships, looking.
So I took an IQ/Logic Test today.. ....let me save you the suspense.. my "smartness" has gone way done. I am just not as sharp as I was when I was in school. My brain is used to pull data, and enter crap into excel.. real brain trust stuff. Maybe I will move to phoenix..Elise is there...when I was there for spring break it seemed like it had a good vibe...why am I sweating..anyway I better go work.. today I have the job of "helping" two other guys. I don't mind helping them, but they always give me the shittiest part of their jobs.. I bust arse, and they watch U-tube videos....awesome...plus one of them is creepy...Anyway, no one reads this but me..so bye Chris
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