Life and Such

Well, Its been a while since I wrote, but I was feeling frustrated today. First, its the first day back to work. I think I am tired of this job.. maybe I know that I am tired of this job. I am trying to stay optimistic, but cmon it is nothing special. Although I am trying to stay optimistic. Have to stay optimistic. I thought 2009 was going to be a good year, but so far its sucked. I spent new years not doing much, and my first date in a while was going pretty well, then I am not sure how it ended. I cant get a read on this girl.. I think she maybe excited about me, but then I also think she might not be. She seems cool and is cute (more than cute) insert comment, but I am me and that limits me sometimes. I thought I was being myself, but why are there ackward pauses.. I think its the attraction, I think attraction can take away from conversation. I mean Jerry said it best when he "was all ackward pauses" its true, you cant exactly make a move while discussing Abortion. I hope that this year will do me good. I need good things to happen. I am really proud of myself for many different reasons, but I fear that I will wake up and be thirty one day, and wonder what I am doing with my life. I just want to travel, have a cool and hot gf, and kids sooner or later. I will keep you posted. Its funny because I have so much confidence in myself, but yet I try to be vunerable. Maybe I should have my sports attitude of being a competitive somewhat ass all the time. We shall see.. Thats all for now.
Chris