So I am here at work wondering what the heck I should be expecting out of life. It seems that I am just wasting away, there has to be more than life than this. Do I really want to waste my 20's in a divorced, industrial, capital of the world.....not really. I am just fed up. Things seem never really to go anywhere. I think that I need a break, my big break. I am getting excited about football and baseball playoffs, but I am pretty sure that there are no single, undivorced, no kids, attractive woman in my particular postal district. I am starting to think that I should be home (closer) to people that care about me. Not that I havent made friends here, but its not the same. I dont know if I want to move home, maybe just some place new. I joined match.com..yeah that website is bullshit. I email seemingly interested woman, and nothing but ben and jerrys for me. Which brings me to another frustration about my life.. constant battle between eating, working out, running, etc. I shouldn't have to live my life eating good protein, no carbs, running, lifting...just blah.. my fav. day is sat. because I get to have oatmeal, and a few beers. I dunno.. I went and saw a plastic surgeon and he said that I just have loose skin from being so heavy when I was younger and being in good shape now.. it still sucks.. I wish that I could have the body that I have worked hard for. Its like I have to choose to be a twig, or have muscle and be 20 pds heavier than I want.. no in between.
Work is work, and I am starting to get bored with it. No one really takes a vested interest in my progress or growth, and I have actually started to think about getting my mba, so I can run a company into the ground one day. If I had one wish it would be to get a 100k so that I could not have to worry about school debt, and I would be drinking baileys and cream on some beach, but alas.. I sit in a damp, cold office...yes..
p.s. Kate got married..not sure how I feel about that.
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